Dear Mom,
I have had a few days where I have been very busy and being that busy made me feel like maybe I was past the point where my grief from your loss would catch in my throat and trickle down my face. I was wrong. The pain can still be raw and uncontrollable. I know that you would not want me to be so sad. But I miss you so much. I keep wanting to call you to share something, or just to say hello and the realization that I can't is always surprisingly shocking. Rationally, it should not shock me, but emotionally it does. And that is hard. I wish I could talk to you about how hard it is -- you always were the person I would go to when I felt overwhelmed by something.
Losing you has made your strong daughter feel fragile. I love you, Mom.
No comments:
Post a Comment